Crunch Time is Really Win-Win Time

R 4-15- What an absolute doll M is! Its easy to see why I think she rocks so much. I got into this to root her on and to maybe get healthy along the way ... maybe even lose a few pounds. I didnt get into it to reach a singular sole personal goal, oh no ...

On the contrary, I got into it for fun and a sporting healthy sense of competition. M is competitive and I knew this bet would serve that end and for me serve the 'doing it along with someone' sense of belonging that is such a potent motivator for me. As such Win-Win. I envisioned us marching down this path of improvement together and reveling in our achievement ... together!

So, with that in mind believe me when I say 'I' dont want to win, 'We' wants to win! And by that I mean my winning doesnt come unless M wins too. As she says the numbers will matter little but doing what you can to get there and raising your hands in victory anyway. So M, I need you to put in the work you can and when we see each other we can raise our arms in unison and embrace with glee like two olympic atheletes stumbling toward the podium. Win-Win is the only outcome I have sought ... dont you know!! Win with me M.

Crunch time

4-13-09-M- It's been forever since I've been here.. even longer since I've made any effort to lose weight or care about myself. When I said there were 2 ways I could go after my break up
well I took the easy path of self destruction. No clue where I'll end up in this fight against the flab. I have all the best intentions in the world but right now I don't feel worthy of it. Rick has been my bestfriend.. he's the best human I know.. and he's doing great. Trash talking him at this point would serve no purpose. He's gonna win this bet.. but I figure I have a few months left I might as well give it one last try. I have nothing left to lose. Regardless of what Ricks number on the scale will be he's already won. He's stuck with it.. and been a true cheerleader in my life.
So if I lose I still win.. I get to spend time with him my dearest friend.. and embrace all the goodness that is him.